Hello again, a few questions that I would like to answer, is how is the doctor going to react? I can tell you by my one experience.
How can someone assess your pain, you are the only one, not even your physician can assess your pain, and if disagree, you should not suffer because of that, professional must provide relief & hope. If you suffer from chronic pain, you should not be denied adequate pain control because of your fear that you will become addicted. Just remember that relief of the chronic pain is not asking for the impossible.
Describing chronic pain to your doctor, you must communicate what the pain means to you in the context of your life. How is it changing your life? How is it interfering with your functioning? What do you want to do that you can't do because of the pain? Bring your medical team into your frame of reference. The words you choose are important because they provide your doctor with clues, as to what your pain is like.
Of course, you must do what you can to minimize yr pain by being good to yr body, avoiding overwork,&refusing to perform activities when you are exhausted or in pain. Often, however, such preventive measures aren't enough. There are many words to describing pain. Words such as pulsing, throbbing, pounding, shooting, prickling, stabbing, lancing, electrical, sharp, pinching, pressing, gnawing, craping, crushing, tugging, wrenching, hot, cruel, vicious, killing, blinding, intense, unbearable, spreading, radiating, piercing, tearing, agonizing, & torturing also describe different types of intense pain. Tingling, itchy, stinging, dull, sore, aching, heavy, tender, tiring, exhausting, sickening, suffocating, frightful, annoying, troublesome, miserable, tight, rigid, numb, squeezing, cool, cold, icy, & nagging are others words to describe different kinds of pain more pricisely. Then there is also the kind of pain that brings on other symptoms such as vomiting, shaking, distractability, &/or an inability to concentrate. Do you have suicide thinking, this has to be taken very seriously. Don't be afraid to speak up, as the doctor can help you. You will not be looked upon a freak, because you mentioned suicide thoughts, what you are describing to your doctor is a symptom, not a disease. The same goes if you have a lack of sleep, which as you know is a vital role in memory. The quality of our sleep has an impact on your life. Sleep deprivation affects, your way to thinking clearly & how you feel.
When I have more, I'll write more, but for now I think it's a good start. Have a good day & take one day at a time. Just remember, to be good to your body and treat it with respect, this may mean changing your eating habits, your emotional mind, and also how you perceive yourself.